I have had this title written on my blog list for a while now, but in complete honesty I haven’t really known what to write. Until now.
This post is written for anyone who has a dream but lacks the courage and confidence to go after it.
I hope it serves you well.
Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important tool I’ve ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything – all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure – these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important.
– Steve Jobs
The name Soulful Warrior was given to me when I asked the powers that be for some help in naming my business, and it came almost immediately. I checked the domain to see if it was available and it was, and I told myself that if it was still available in the morning I would buy it and make something from it. It was, and I am. The problem with being given this name is I haven’t really understood the depth of importance that it carries.
But each day I am getting closer to figuring it out.
I see the Soul as the gateway into our spirit. It’s the small piece of the greater version of ourselves that lives within us. If you are interested in spirituality then you’ll know exactly what I mean. If you tap into the Soul, you tap into Spirit, expansion, Source, the Universe, you name it. Everyone has a Soul, and most of us have experienced it from time to time as it comes in whispers and gut feelings. In hindsight, it is easier to explain this force than it is to explain what Warrior stands for.
Because Warriors are few and far between.
A Warrior is someone who stands up for what they believe in even if their voice shakes.
A Warrior is someone who not only listens to the whispers of their Soul, but acts on them fully.
A Warrior is someone who is unapologetically themselves in a world that throws rocks at anything different.
A Warrior is someone who is seen as crazy, delusional and a trouble maker by the majority.
A Warrior is someone who commits 100% to their cause, because they believe in its power.
I have sat down and read stories about famous Warriors, like Joan of Arc who at the age of 13 started to see visions and hear voices in her head whom she believed to be from God. And she didn’t try to hide it. Joan put together an army and played a pivotal role in recovering France from English domination in 1430. But a year later she was captured by the English, put onto trial and ultimately burned at the stake for witchcraft. She was 19 years old. 25 years after her execution she was pronounced innocent, and then later declared a Saint by the Catholic Church.
It is easy to see her courage, but the diversity she would have faced because of it would have been fierce.
It has only been in the days passing Jessica Ainscough‘s death have I really realised the weight of what it means to be a Warrior.
Jess was diagnosed with a rare form of cancer in her arm and shoulder at the age of 22, and was told she had around 5 years to live if left untreated. She tried intensive chemotherapy that at first was successful but the cancer soon returned and she was advised that an amputation of her arm and shoulder would help extend her life. Jess decided to seek other forms of treatment and found juicing and other recommendations from the Gerson Institute to be beneficial to her health and quality of life.
Her cancer wasn’t progressing, she was thriving, and she made the radical decision to share everything she was learning with the world, despite the controversy that surrounds the Gerson Institute.
She branded herself and lived the life as The Wellness Warrior.
Jess lived (and loved life) with her untreated cancer for 8 years, and in the wake of her death am I only now seeing the attacks she would have faced. Daily.
Just like Joan of Arc, Jess is openly getting burned at the stake for her witchcraft, and just like Joan of Arc, I believe in time the majority that are fuelling the fire will come to realise how much she lead a great battle of change against an unwavering force.
What it means to be a Warrior I believe is summed up best by Danielle LaPorte.
“Keep your heart open, as wide open as you possibly can. Keep it so soft. Let it be tender. FEEL EVERYTHING. Feel your feelings, share your feelings. Keep your heart gentle, gentle, open, open. And then… put a big fucking fence around it. Make it tall and make it strong. Ask your angels to guard the gate for you at all times. Do not let anybody past your gate unless their own heart is open and gentle. Only let in people who are respectful, kind, interested and loving. Emphasis on respectful, kind, interested and loving.”
Jess did just that, and in return she was able to live courageously. She was able to shine light on a different path. She was able to give people looking for options in a world completely dominated by man made drugs, options.
In her passing I personally realised I wasn’t living up to the name of being a Warrior. I have been hesitating in the fear of being burned at the stake for my own beliefs.
For admitting to my own voices from God.
For using the word, God.
And in her passing I realised how blessed I am.
In her passing I realised I am here to make a difference – a BIG difference – just like Jess has, and not to fear the voices of doubt, even after I am gone, because love will always find a way to win.
Love. Always. Wins.
Jess understood the meaning of death, and lived life fully and completely knowing and accepting that she was going to die. We should all be so lucky to have that wisdom.
What are you hesitating on? What is so near and dear to your heart that you are keeping locked away with great pains because of fear? What are you so afraid of? The world needs more Warriors like Jessica, the world needs more women to live, laugh and love openly like we are dying. Because we are.
We all have this courage inside of us and together we will stand as one. Big love to you Warrior.
Be kind. Be brave. Be well. Written in dedication of Jessica, a true Warrior. Thank you.